Saturday, December 11, 2010

OH BOY!

This is the second time I'm writing this post. I was almost finished with it, but due to a busy schedule and lack of sleep yesterday, it didn't get posted. When I just went to look in my drafts, it was gone. What the heck? What happened to the auto-save? So here it is, the shortened version (lucky you):

Thursday morning we packed up the car and headed to Savannah for my 20 week doctor's appointment and sonogram. We were excited to find out the sex, but more anxious to find out if everything was ok. You see, last time we went to this appointment (anatomical ultrasound) we learned that Hannah had a couple "hot spots" on her heart and kidneys and were referred to a perinatologist to have a level 2 ultrasound. It was a very bittersweet day. These markers basically meant that something wasn't quite right and, as development progressed didn't improve, the baby could be born with defects. Two weeks later at that appointment the kidney situation had resolved and only the heart was not exactly right. We were given a 95% chance that we would have a healthy baby. Joe and I decided we would be optimistic and be hopeful in that large percentage and not worry.

This time we went into it very differently. Driving to Savannah we admitted to each other that while we didn't really have a preference, girl or boy, we were anxious to hear that the baby was healthy. During the ultrasound, the tech slowly (emphasis here on slowly) went down the body measuring, re-measuring, and making her calculations. As I gazed at the screen in front of me trying to decipher what in the world I was looking at, I kept glancing at her face to see if she would react to anything abnormal. Joe was holding Hannah (who was fascinated with the baby on the screen) and had his hand on my leg trying to offer comfort. There was 15-20 minutes of this before we even found out the sex. And that was quite a sight! Our tech had gone from the stomach to the legs and just as she finished and headed between the legs, I thought I saw - ok I knew I saw - that male appendage. When she asked what we thought, I said "A boy!?!" Without a doubt. He's very active, too. When she finished all the measurements and went to the screen with all the percentages she told us he was in the upper 90s in everything - 97% overall. Make that a BIG, active, boy.

We then waited to see the doctor, still nervous and ready to hear those precious words: "Everything looks good." And, almost an hour after we arrived at the doctor's office we did. So make that a big, active, healthy, boy. Thank the Lord. We were so relieved.

On a different note, I could not believe this. We haven't really talked a lot about the new baby to Hannah. But a couple times we have touched my tummy and said "baby...baby." Last week, I was holding Hannah when I asked her where the baby was. She patted her own tummy.

Then this week, she has really come to seemingly understand this whole thing. She'll come up and put her hands on either side of my belly and say "hey baby!" Sometimes she'll lean over and make a "mmmmwaah" sound (without the kiss - she's not there yet). While she'll also pet our dog Mollie and say baby, it blows my mind how much she's learning and growing.

We are so blessed.

We are back in Jesup now. Hannah hardly slept on Thursday night. And after a busy few days getting the Operation Hungry Child mailing done, we really needed some sleep. So Friday was a sleep-deprived blur. My mom babysat Hannah while Joe and I went to a funeral, and then Friday night we went to Joe's parents' annual Christmas party.

Looking forward to getting some sleep tonight.


waving with grandma
getting a look-don't-touch lesson from uncle ben
showing daddy the little santa hat she stole off the dolphin
playing with the bell tree. she grabs it on either side and
shakes it as hard as she can,
looking back to see who's watching.
cuddling with aunt betsy

we've been good this year.

As a fun exercise - and because I'm procrastinating doing other things - I thought I'd put together wish lists for the Buck family. So...

What Hannah wants for Christmas:


a. Toms shoes to match Mommy's, b. Plan Toys xylophone, c. toilet paper, d. $ for my college and savings funds, e. Prudence the owl bla bla doll (note from Santa - bought!), f. a wooden rocking horsey - my mom's and uncle's would be just fine, g. pretty puzzle, h. Robeez cream booties, i. aluminum foil


What Lindsey wants for Christmas:

a. Patagonia Retro-X jacket, b. Canon 50mm lens, c. wood laundry drying rack, d. flats - I love these black patent ones by Puma, e. Toms ash canvas shoes, f. Michael Kors Jet Set horn watch, g. laptop bag, h. knot doorstop - to keep Hannah from slamming her fingers in the hall door, i. Shark steam pocket mop


What Joe wants for Christmas:


a. triathlon bike shoes, b. Sodastream, c. adjustable dumb bells, d. dress shirts, e. Calphalon Contemporary stainless steel omelette pan, f. dress shirt, g. long-sleeved knit polos, h. bike wheels, i. running shorts

Sunday, December 5, 2010

haters not wanted

Before we left for Atlanta, Joe set the DVR to record the SEC Championship game. His beloved Auburn was playing. Last night we got back in town just in time for the game to end. We picked up our dogs, put a pizza in the oven and turned on the game, watching it from the beginning and acting as if it was happening live (as if it mattered - we have no control over the outcome either way!). In the end, we were very pleased and excited that Auburn was going to the national title game.

Unfortunately I signed on Facebook to celebrate the win with a War Eagle in my status. I say unfortunately because I saw on the homepage a few ugly comments from "friends" regarding Auburn. For the purpose of this post, and because that's what they are, I'll call these people "haters." 

Why? That is the thing I just simply don't understand. Why do people have to hate? Why do people have to take out their anger, bitterness, resentment, or jealousy on somebody else? Is it because something is missing in their own lives that something so insignificant as a football game really gets them that upset? Is it really worth using the computer to bash somebody? You have to wonder.

To not neglect the obvious, I'll mention the Cam Newton controversy. Now, in America we are suppose to presume innocence until proven guilty. It has become commonplace to do the opposite though. We immediately condemn someone when allegations are thrown around, despite not knowing the whole story. In the case of Cam Newton, the solicitation of money by his dad involving Mississippi State has been investigated by the NCAA for a few weeks now. To not go into all the details, they found his dad to be guilty and Cam not, since he had no knowledge of the ordeal. He was deemed eligible to play. So far, Auburn (or Cam Newton) hasn't been found to have done anything wrong in any of this. Of course, if Cam Newton wasn't the star quarterback that he is, there wouldn't have been near the hype surrounding this news. But he is, and will most likely take home the Heisman trophy. But this post isn't about Auburn's season or Cam Newton. It's about hate.

So what is it? What makes Auburn so "unlikeable" and Cam so hated by non-Auburn fans? Let's be honest, would these same people be so upset and vent their anger on Facebook if it was their team? Of course not. In fact, in the case of several schools in the SEC, the same and similar allegations have been made and several are under investigation by the NCAA. I find it hypocritical to the nth degree. 

There is clean hate and there is ugly hate. I love football. I mean, I LOVE football. I went to Georgia Tech and am a huge Yellow Jackets fan - win or lose. I don't hate on my own team and I try not to hate on other teams. ...Ok, there is one other team in Georgia I'd rather not win. The Georgia/Georgia Tech rivalry to me is clean, old-fashioned hate. It's no secret that I don't like Georgia, but other than the words "To hell with Georgia!" you are not going to see hate written on my wall. After all, these words come from our century-old fight song:

Oh! If I had a daughter, sir, I'd dress her in White and Gold,
And put her on the campus to cheer the brave and bold.
But if I had a son, sir, I'll tell you what he'd do--
He would yell, 'To hell with Georgia!' like his daddy used to do.

I married into an Auburn family. Joe's dad and aunt both went to Auburn (as well as several other family members) and he was raised in an Auburn home. After the Naval Academy (and his active duty) he graduated from Auburn with his MBA. While he was there he helped coach the swim team and was really involved with Auburn athletics. The things he has told me about the athletic department there is admirable. Joe cheers for the Tigers and celebrates their wins, but doesn't hate on his team or other teams when they don't win. Let me say that according to Joe, he has calmed down quite a bit. He has realized that it is just a game. Loyalty means a lot these days when you consider how quickly people give up on their own team or coaches and take out their frustrations on other teams.  

It takes too much energy to hate. What are we losing sight of? Seriously, how important is this football game or season in the grand scheme of things? Things change from season to season and we have no guarantees. I am tired of the hate. It's probably there all the time, but I'm just really seeing it this year because it's directed towards a team I cheer for. I also have many Facebook friends that are Alabama and Georgia fans - two other SEC schools. I haven't bothered to comment on any status updates that proclaim hate. It's not even worth my time. These people should be getting upset about more important things.

I'm getting off my soap box now.

Hannah and Daddy cheering for the Tigers.

Me cheering the Titans on. (They did not have a good game today.) I was reacting to Hannah's squeals...

Thursday, December 2, 2010

a day in the life

It's December, and we are loving it. The Christmas decorations are up, about half of the shopping is done, and Christmas music plays on the Bose. I don't know if I have ever been this organized and ready for the holidays. Ok maybe that's an exaggeration, but I love it.

don't you love the new addition?
My mom gave me this countdown chalk board 10 years ago.
Every year mom adds to our Fontanini Nativity.
Love silver and gold.

For those people who might find it interesting enough to read (one or two people), I thought I'd take you through a typical day for us. And this might answer some questions from those that wonder, what does a stay-at-home mom do all day? So, this is what yesterday (Wednesday) looked like:

This morning I woke up the way I usually do - hearing Hannah on the monitor next to my bed talking to herself. I pick it up and click the video button and there she is bouncing in the crib, walking around the sides, and occasionally bending over in her perfect downward facing dog pose. She can typically entertain herself - perhaps even falling back asleep - like this for about an hour. So when she starts at 7 or earlier I can usually doze on and off until about 8 before I actually get up. I hope this doesn't make you want to hurt me. I go into her room and see the happiest baby on the block (ok, the only baby on the block). She is so excited to see me and that's what starts my day. This morning I find that she is, again, soaked in pee. I don't know how she manages or how the diaper doesn't manage for that matter, but how in the heck does she pee that much during the night? And we just changed her crib sheet last night and you know how not easy that is.

We head for the highchair and I turn on the warmer for her milk. I also turn on the news and rewind so that I can fast-forward through commercials. Daddy has her breakfast set out before he goes running. All I have to do is eat up the milk and pour the oatmeal. Well, technically, I also have to add the olive oil. You are wondering what in the world, but we are doing some new things per her doctor that will hopefully help her skin issues. The olive oil provides her with omega-3's. I feed her the oatmeal - sometimes with her help, depending on her mood - and then she gets her "bowel" (bottle), or sippy cup as we call it. We mix in probiotics - also for her skin.

Tangent: We are now seeing a new pediatrician and love him. Love him, love him, love him. We have to drive an hour to see him but it is completely worth it. He is incredibly smart, very helpful, and listens. Listens! By using non-traditional methods (as oppose to just treating the symptoms, slathering her with steroid creams and ointments twice a day, everyday), he is trying to shut down the "bad" T-cells and boost the "good" T-cells because Hannah has a T-H2 bias, like her Momma, which leads to the great things like allergies, asthma, and eczema.

I make myself some tea or coffee (unless husband already has) and eventually get to breakfast. Dare I admit that this is where Joe comes in again? He makes the meals, what can I say? No need to pretend. So after breakfast, we play for a little while. Joe goes into work later in the mornings so that he can take advantage of this - Hannah's best time of day. This morning we Skyped Uncle Ben and Katie. Some mornings we wrestle. I put Hannah in the shower with Joe, which is definitely the easiest thing to do as the more pregnant I get, the harder bath time becomes. Plus, Hannah loves this time with her Daddy. Joe is off to work and Hannah goes down for a nap around 10. Today it was more like 11. These deviations from the schedule happen. I get over it.

Wait - I forgot to mention Hannah's fun this morning. During our Skype call, I heard her in the kitchen, walked in to find she grabbed my coffee cup off the table (spilling it along the way on the table, chair cushion and sisal rug) and was drinking it - really drinking it. It wasn't hot and it was decaf, so we weren't as worried, but this kid only drinks soy milk and water. She is allergic to milk - which was in my coffee. We'll see...

Now it's me time. This morning I started* laundry, cleaned up the kitchen and squeezed in an hour of yoga. Yoga is what keeps me sane, and trust me, as my husband will tell you, I need my workout or I am a stressed out, depressed wreck just not myself. I do a little blog reading. I do a little Christmas present planning, and am very happy to see that our Christmas cards came in the mail! I am totally on the ball this year with those things. Now I just need to get them out...

Do not be fooled. My mornings aren't always like this. Sometimes my productivity is non-existent. Sometimes I don't actually wash my face or get out of my pajamas until well after lunch. And shower? You can forget that some days. And notice I said started laundry. I have a load in the wash, dryer, and in the basket waiting to be folded. Hannah sleeps a little over an hour and a half. A couple days ago I looked at the monitor and saw this:


I remember half way through my yoga that it's Wednesday (I know.) and Ms. Margaret (sweet lady from the church nursery) comes to take care of Hannah for a few hours. This was Joe's idea to give me some time to myself and help me stay sane. It is wonderful, but today I do not need her. I will be home, doing an array of things but can handle them all with a toddler at my side.

Twenty minutes left of yoga and Banana wakes up. As you may have read here, this happens. There is no peaceful ending to the practice today. Still, I let her make noise for a while and finish.

I feed her lunch. Joe comes home (benefit to working two miles from home) and we both eat our lunch. The rest of the day is a blur. I don't slow down. I finish the laundry, straighten the house, take the monkey with me to the grocery store, get ready for dinner guests, and oh yeah, chase around a very curious toddler. (Right now she is in to opening the kitchen drawers and reaching for whatever she can pull out. Dog treats, pens, utensils, and scissors for example.) She's also still into cords, books, magazines, and just about everything else I'd rather her not be. I put her down for an afternoon nap around 3 (usually it's closer to 2). She never sleeps. She makes various noises escalating to a tantrum. I manage to get done what I can, shower and dress, all just in time to walk in the room as she is hyperventilating. Enough is enough, Mom, she says. Drama drama. 

my new friends.
they store almost all her junk and have hinged lids!
I pick up the house a little bit since I am obsessive about that, feed the dogs, and set the table. Our dinners with friends Lauren and Pete are usually casual, but today I break out the fine Christmas china and silver because we are celebrating Lauren's birthday! Plus, I love any reason to use our nice stuff - so much better than it sitting in the china cabinet/silver chest all the time untouched. (Why register for it if you're not going to use it?) We have a fun night. Hannah plays with their daughter, Riley, who is two weeks older, and Joe cooks a mean meal and the best dessert ever! Oh my goodness. This is heaven for a chocolate-loving pregnant lady: brownie pudding (aka, brownie batter that's safe to eat). I have two helpings. Fellow preggos, a must!




Company goes home, Hannah goes to bed and it's my other favorite part of the day: adult time. I love this hour or two Joe and I get to spend together, even if it's just watching a show off the DVR together. Just as we are about to head to bed, Monkey wakes up. Very upset. She has, again, soiled her pajamas and the crib sheet. We spend over an hour trying to console her. I bundle her up and Joe takes her outside for a little while (sometimes the only thing that will calm her). It was freezing last night. After some milk and lots of rocking she goes to sleep. Sometime after midnight we go to sleep too. We are exhausted.

I do love my life.

19 weeks

Thanksgiving in pictures

technically not Thanksgiving, but the weekend before.
I can't help myself, this monkey is cute.
daddy/daughter cuddle-wrestling time at Grandma's house
helping Grandma make a squash turkey for Gran Gran's table

playing with Uncle Weebee on Moon River
laughing with Gran Gran
watch the attempts for a family photo...
with Gran Gran and Poppy
all Hannah wanted to do was walk up and down the ramp.
gorgeous day on the water


 cuddle time with momma